Random Facts

One of the blogs I follow is written by author Elizabeth Lyons. I have been reading her books since I found out I was pregnant with the boy’s. Her humor and ability to keep it simple keeps me coming back for more. Her most recent post was about revealing unknown facts about oneself.  This is a practice that I have been involved with since starting my journey of recovery. She invited her readers to dig deep and then share:

1.  I love cooking….this is a new discovery. I thought I hated cooking but really I was just lazy and didn’t want to clean up after.

2.  If I had to identify one thing in nature that allows me to feel one with God it would be water. It’s part of everything living and is even in the air we breath.

3.  One of my new favorite show’s is “Teen Mom 2″ on MTV.

4. I really enjoy dancing with my boys (that doesn’t mean I’ll be going out dancing anytime soon).

5. I have a difficult time identifying with other Mom’s at times.

6. I struggle at times meeting my children where they are at, even though that’s want I want from everyone else I have a relationship with.

7. I spend WAY TOO MUCH time researching kids items

8. I find it very helpful to find out “why” someone is behaving the way they are, it is easier for me to elicit some compassion and lay down my judgments

9. I would really love to adopt a little girl

10. Sometimes napping is essential to everyone’s survival.

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"Mama who's God?"

I had been waiting for that question among many others that I cringe at the thought of being asked. The conversation a few weeks ago went something like this:

Clay: “what’s that building Mama, a castle?”
Me: “No, honey that’s a church”
Clay: “what’s a church”
Me: “a church is a place people go to learn about God”
Clay: “who’s God”
Me: holding my breath and hoping he forgot the question
Clay: “WHO’S GOD MAMA”
Me: “Did you see that bird over there?”

For those who have known me my whole life, my reaction and avoidance may surprise you with my long history of going to church, christian schools and camps. Yet, it’s my history with all of those that led me to my reaction. I don’t want my experience and understanding of God to be my childrens’ understanding. Don’t get me wrong I am very grateful for all of that knowledge, it has come in handy a number of times in my life. But that was all it added up to be when my world started crumbling, just knowledge. It hadn’t been an experience or a practice. At some points during my emotional adolescence I would have told you that I had a spiritual experience and that I had a personal relationship with God. What I had was some prayers that I threw to the sky when I didn’t have the answers and I was scared. I didn’t believe or trust that I was going to be taken care of, or that I was unconditionally loved. I didn’t come to believe and trust that until after I turned 30. I hope my children don’t have to wait that long.

When I hit a bottom in my life and started a path of recovery. I was told that I needed to find a Higher Power of my understanding. That I could define and name that Higher Power and that it could be as complicated or simple as I needed it to be. I knew I didn’t want the God that I remembered from some of the schools, churches and camps I had attended. That God was a judging, vengeful entity that already had my life planned out for me. Therefore all of the bad things that had happened in my life had been a result of that God. It was suggested I write out a list of attributes that I wanted/needed from my Higher Power (who I now chose to call God). But when I sat down to write that list I remember crying, I didn’t feel like I deserved to ask for what I needed. So I wrote a list of attributes I couldn’t have in a God. Then I wrote a list of all the times I knew that someone or something had been taking care of me. It became a freeing and fulfilling journey, that I am so grateful for.

Yet, I still don’t have words to explain God to my children.

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A minute to remember…..

p>Recently on one of discussion boards I am part of a video was linked up and I thought I’d share:

I clearly remember the moment about 4 years ago I decided not to wait to find the “perfect someone” to start a family with. There was a sense of empowerment knowing that other women had gone before me and successfully conceived and raised children on their own. I am so grateful that in those moments I didn’t project the worse case scenario’s which is my usual default, instead I ran with that intuitive notion and now have two beautiful boys to journey with.

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QOTW….OMG How do all of you do this????

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p>So this seem like the perfect opportunity for me to re-enter the blogging world. I have missed it so much but it always falls so low on my list of things to do. This week over at Multiples and….More the Question of the Week was left up to us participants which I think is great!

So my question is “How do you parents of preschool age multiples do this and blog or even shower some days?”

Frequently, I have new mothers of twins ask me when it’s going to get easier. My answer is “It doesn’t, the hard parts just become different.” So I have no expectation that life with children, never mind multiples is going to become easy.  Some insight on how to get them both potty trained, to listen when I am in the shower or on the phone, and to stop fighting would be great. Also, how to keep them both healthy while in preschool would be helpful too.

Looking forward to checking out the questions and other blogs tonight after they go to bed, if I can stay awake that long!

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2010-a year in blogging

Here are my favorite blog posts for the last year:

January:  There’s no amount of preparing for parenthood that makes it easier…..

February:  Traveling with Multiples: QOTW

March:   Weakness or Strength?

April:     Dear Jillian Michael’s

May:      Top Ten Things I have learned about me..

June:   Summer “will do” list

July:  Finding the Gray

August:  Fall here we come

September: Apple Picking

October:   Top Ten lessons I want my Children to learn

November: Teaching Gratitude

December:  It Came and Went

I have really enjoyed starting this journey of blogging. My hope is that now that the boy’s are starting preschool that I will have more opportunities to share.

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It came and went….

p>What a whirlwind the last few weeks have been. Birthday’s, Christmas, family and friends. All wonderful things but still time-consuming.  So to recap:

The boy’s birthday party was wonderful. Family and friends joined us to celebrate with love, laughter and cake. The boy’s enjoyed the audience and of course the presents. The got a train table, books, clothes, puzzles and so much more. I have already started putting things away to  pull out on a rainy/snowy day.

Christmas was magical. They really got into the concept of Santa and the story behind that. I also started introducing the biblical story. In fact at the boy’s birthday party Reese kept calling a friends baby, “Baby Jesus”. We all got a laugh but it also warmed my heart to know that he was holding onto some of what was being said. Christmas morning at 2:00am I was woken up by both boys and informed it was morning. They were sent back to bed. When morning came we were greeted by Mimzy downstairs and the stocking/present opening began. I was both overjoyed by their excitement and somewhat saddened at their constant want for more presents. I’ve been told that is normal and they will get the idea as they mature. We visited family that afternoon and had a wonderful time. We were all beat by that night.

I am so grateful to be awake to my life today and have the gift of living these moments through my children’s eyes.

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A year in review!

One of my favorite things to do is take pictures of my boy’s and share them with others. I had great intentions of doing baby books but it just never happened. Instead I put together a montage from one birthday to the next and I am having copies made for both of them so someday they can take them when the grow up. Here is the montage for this past year. If you want to see the prior one’s there are links on the right of my blog. Enjoy!!

QOTW: Holiday Traditions

One of the advantages of being a single parent is that I have had the chance to decide without compromise what holiday traditions we will practice as a family. Some of the more material traditions I have started are:

  • Opening one present of PJ’s on Christmas Eve
  • Getting each of the boy’s a new tree ornament each year that I will pass onto them when they have a tree of their own to decorate.
  • Making homemade ornaments
  • Decorating a Gingerbread house
  • Riding around looking at lights

From the more spiritual side:

  • I have struggled over the last few years with how to introduce the religious aspects of Christmas to the boy’s without actually practicing a religion. I have a strong belief and faith in God but don’t feel like those belief’s fit into any specific religious community. So the teaching of the meanings behind Christmas are up to me. Last year I found a children’s book written by Neale Donald Walsch who also wrote the book “Conversations with God” which I enjoyed and identified with. The children’s book is “Santa’s God” and is about a conversation between a child and Santa who answers the question “Santa, who is the real God?”.  I cried the first time I read it. It is a beautiful description in simple language of how we are all the same despite our differences.
  • Reading “The Night before Christmas”
  • Reading the biblical story of the first Christmas

Then of course, there are all the Christmas movies etc. I was sitting with a group of other moms this past week and I was given a great reminder that whatever traditions I start, I should be prepared to continue since they will be all the boy’s know. In hearing that I am, sticking with these for now because simple is many times more meaningful in my world.


Teaching Gratitude…

With the holidays here and the catalogs and commercials in full swing, I have really started contemplating how gratitude is taught. I am also taking an online class and following a blog by the author Christine Carter of “Raising Happiness” and she talks about fostering gratitude. I know from my own experiences that gratitude was hard to find sometimes in life and it wasn’t until starting on a path of emotional health that I truly understood why it is important.

Early in recovery and even now when I am stuck in negativity it is suggested to write a gratitude list at night before I go to bed. I always find that my perspective shifts after I am done. Something happens when I stop focusing on what’s wrong and start remembering what is going right.  As I reflect on this,  I am reminded that people modeled gratitude for me . Seeing the glass as half full does not come natural to me. I hear frequently that negativity and complaining is a habit. If that is true,  gratitude and happiness can also become a habit.

I feel strongly as a parent that it is my responsibility to teach them genuine gratitude and not develop a sense of entitlement. I see so many kids today who have too much stuff, including my kids. Having their birthday and Christmas only 8 days apart contributes to that problem. As they get older I am going to encourage more gifts of experience, like Children’s Museum memberships, movie tickets, magazine subscriptions etc.  This year I am putting some of the gifts away and taking them out throughout the year.

I have found a few ideas that I would like to start incorporating into our lives.  First I would like to start naming three things/people we were thankful for during our day either at dinner or before bed. Second I would like to start doing bedtime prayers with them, with the focus being on thanking God  for the day, for the people in our lives etc. Thirdly, I would like to start going through their toys, books and clothes before their birthday and holidays and have them be a part of passing those items onto other. Either kids younger or families in needs.

To start the process this year we gave some baby toys/items to a friend who is having twins. We also made gratitude trees. I printed some trees and leaves off the internet. Then we sat down and the boy’s named people in their lives that they are thankful for. They don’t completely understand what thankful means, so I inserted the word “love” when it got confusing. Many of their favorite people were named, but also “Woody”, “Buzz”, “Santa” and “Lucky the Elf” made the list. After making the list, I wrote names on the leaves, then we glued the leaves on the trees. I took pictures for memory sake. It was a lot of fun and a tradition I would like to continue.

Happy Thanksgiving to all of you and I am grateful you are all in my life!


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